Scared Little Girl

I'm not yet ready
to experience the joy
emotions well guarded
by a scared little girl

Wanting the feeling
that love will bring
but fearing the flip side
already seen

Healing will come
I know with my mind
but still I'm not ready
'cause what lies behind

Yet moving forward
for love's open hand
a scared little girl
wounded by a man

I Need

You take from my words what you understand and leave the rest behind. Here's a few more thoughts straight from my heart that I feel so deep inside...

I need a man to hold my hand and love me gently
I need a man by my side as a lover and a guide
I need a partner for life who is loyal to me mind, body, and soul with an understanding that the love I give is unconditional
I need a man who understands that my trust is unwavering and that the most intimate of me belongs to him
I need a man to take the time to eat what my time took to cook
I need man that understands that nothing blossoms on it's own
They say that anything worth having takes time...
I need a man that understands, has time, and is 100% mine
I need a man who will respect me for the woman I am
I need a man who will appreciate me for the woman I was and love me for the woman I will be
I need a man with a sensual touch and not a sexual hand
I need a man who can be a 60/40 or a 70/30
I need a man loyal to love and not to lust...a man I can trust
I need a man who knows more than the next but not too much
I need a man who cares
I need a man who will dry my tears
I need a man who feels my joy and my pain
I need a man who is strong as a rock and as comfy as a cushion
I need a man to have my back no matter what the situation
I need a man----that's right, a MAN...to stand next to me

Me

It's not that I'm rejecting you
I'm just accepting me

The person that I give my heart
Should be the one for me

It's not that I'm rejecting you
I'm just choosing me

I am not yet the woman
I was meant to be

It's not the I'm rejecting you
I'm just loving me

You Said...

You said you'd never be like him
but like him you've become

You said you'd always keep me safe
protect me from all harm

But I'll be damned it's his face I see
when I look at you

I have to do a double-take
each time when you walk through

Feelings Forgotten

You are the future
Not the past
He made me smile
You make me laugh

Feelings forgotten
Pushed down deep
My heart is open
For you to creep

BBM-Beautiful Black Man

Beautiful Black Man
Skin so smooth
Smile so bright
Attitude---cool

Beautiful Black Man
Arms so strong
Feet well planted
Patience---long

Beautiful Black Man
Wise beyond years
A great thinker
Silent---fears

Beautiful Black Man?

Grandma Beechnut

Missing something never had
seems so hard to do
but as I sit here now...
I'm missing you

It's been years since your face I've seen
but always felt your love
A warm embrace...
A kiss...
A touch...
from you now up above

As time has gone and time will come
there's one thing that I know
If you love please make it known
to feel regret alone

Naked

This is me...here I am
In front of you fully clothed
Feeling naked as the day I was born
I smile shyly as I see you look at me
Some say my smile is bright
They might be right
'Cause what I see in your reflection...I like

No Future

Disgust in my heart
Burning my soul
Looking for a way out
To be in control
I thought you loved me
Once upon a time
Wanted to control me
My heart and my mind
No respect at all
A sexual toy
Faded visions of hope
Not so clearly seen
There is no future for you and me

The Woman I Once Knew

My cup runneth over
With sadness and despair
Lord, why did you make me
Why did you put me here?
My heart is so heavy
My mind so confused
Can't see any joy
For all of my blues
Where once there was sunshine
It's now dark and bleak
Overflowing with love
The pain now so deep
Once anxious to awake
Now anxious to sleep
Thoughts in my head
Are morbid and deep
Fearful of not being
Yet living in fear
Lord make my cup bigger
To hold this despair
Then double that cup
A new me to prepare
Fill it with joy
No longer despair
Some self love too
To bring me back to...the woman I once knew

The Secret Sin

No one knows
But you and me
The secret sin

Understand
Trust
Respect
The secret sin

Don't look too hard
For what it may reveal
The secret sin

Blinders on

What's the secret? What's the sin?
LOVE

No Impression Needed

In a quiet moment
No words to be said
My heart pounds intensely
With the touch of his hand

I hear his eloquent voice
And I close my eyes
It warms my heart
I tingle inside

The rise of his cheeks
The strength in his eyes
The touch of his lips
The warmth in his smile

His journey so simple
Yet complicated too
Words could never describe
The pain he's been through

Through the glory and pain
Masked in the spotlight of fame
"Sparked" by the wonder of what still remains
I can feel his heart

He lives in a loud silence
That only he thinks HE can hear
But I hear it too
And I care

Not seeing or believing what fans call his name
But enjoying the comfort that between us remains

No impression needed to bring smiles between...
With me and my legend it's a genuine thing

If you read this and you're smiling then you know this is you....keep on making me feel the way you do.

We The People

We the people
For which I speak
Are born of injustice
For which I weep

We the people
Stand tall and proud
With the weight of the world
Trying to hold us down

We the people
Striving to achieve
A dream that seemed
So hard to believe

We the people
With only one vote
Achieved the dream
With thoughts to provoke

We the people
Realizing our dreams
Stripped from our ancestors
Many years in between

We the people
So far, yet so near

We the people
No longer in fear

I haven't visited my blog in a while. I guess I've been caught up in life's journey. The thought above was written after the election of Barack. I felt so many emotions during the process and this was the culmination of all that emotion.